Monday, September 21, 2020

Your time has come..... 9-17-2020

My beautiful and sweet Mother in law, Ursula, has left this earthly world to be healed and become whole again in Heaven.

Twelve years of dementia. Nine in a vegatative state. No one deserves this disease!

While Rolf and I can't attend her funeral in NY, I wrote her eulogy which our one nephew Kyle will read on our behalf. 

Mom, this is for you.

She was a strong woman who lived her life with purpose and courage. Living through rough times in Germany and trying to provide for and raise a family proved to be extremely difficult. Dad and Mom made the decision in 1957 to make the move to this country called America. We boarded a ship called the United States and voyaged for 6 days until we arrived at Ellis Island. A new place to call home. A new journey. A new beginning. Just try to even imagine what was going through Moms mind at that time. I tell you, that’s a strong woman to deal with that! That shows her strength and courage.

She was a devoted wife and mother. She was a devoted mother-in-law. She was a very devoted grandmother who loved her grandkids immensely. She was a devoted friend to many. She was devoted to her religion.

She was a caring mother who nurtured her children and raised them with principle and honor.

She was kind and gentle. She was stern when she needed to be. She loved to sing and had the voice of an angel. She sang many times with the VonTrapp family singers. She was loved in some way by all of you here today.

Mom appreciated the little things in life. A smile, a hug, fresh picked flowers from the garden, all animals, a tasty sandwich, a letter or phone call from a friend or even a well made Manhattan. Prost! The list of little things could go on forever.

There is so much more I could tell you about Ursula but then you would be sitting here for a much longer time. And…. I can hear her saying…. “enough about me.”

Mom, though we all said good bye to you many years ago when this horrible disease fully kicked in, Kim and I want you to know we are really going to miss you now that your spirit has flown away to go live in peace. We will miss your silly laugh, your generosity and your zest for life. But most of all, we will miss your love.

Thank you Mom for all the wonderful years we’ve had together. Thank you for being the BEST Mom a guy could ask for.

The time has come….. Lay down now and rest with the angels Mom.

Let your voice be heard as you sing your song in all the glories of Heaven. If we take a pause in life, we WILL be able to hear you once again.

In our hearts I know… you will always be with us.

We love you Mom!

Auf wiedersehen

Rolf & Kimberly

Mom always had Dachshunds! This is her grand-doggie.

We were blessed to have a video call with her an hour before her passing. Thanks to Rolf's Sister.

This Friday, we will have a life video feed from the funeral home, church and cemetery. We will be with you in spirit.

God speed Mom.

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

One then Two


I imagine this is what heaven looks like
Back to the beginning
Back with your 1st Mommy (aka Grandma) & your 1st Daddy (aka G-Pa Bob)

Two years ago today you gained your beautiful wings
Days have turned to weeks
weeks to months
months turned into 2 years

Grief has no end.....

We will see you again someday Muffin.

Love you forever sweet girl,
Mommy #2 & Daddy #2

Monday, August 31, 2020

Our sweet friend Bella

Yesterday, the Rainbow Bridge gained the most special angel. Her name was Bella and we loved her like our own.

She was released from our earthly world..... gently, lovingly and with kind and compassionate hands.

To Rolf and I, she was an honorary Dachshund. OK, so she was 70 pounds. But it was 70 pounds of mush and love.

We HATE cancer and all that it takes from us.

Rolf and I promised you that we will take care of your Mama and Grandpa. We know first hand the pain they feel.

Run and frolic in the gentle breeze sweet Bella. I know that Lily and Muffin were right there to greet you to the Bridge.

You will forever remain in our hearts.

Aunt Kim & Uncle Rolf

Tuesday, July 14, 2020

5 + 1

Five years plus 1 day..... That's how long you've been gone from our physical presence. 

I hear you Dad. I feel you Dad. I know that you're still here in the house with me Dad. For that I'm thankful. 

That was my Dad (aka G-Pa Bob), always worried about his family. It's good to know that from Heaven, he still cares!

Love and miss you every day Dad.


Friday, January 31, 2020

Another year.....

How is it possible that you are spending another birthday in heaven and away from us. Sweet Lily Belle, it will always break our hearts that you are not here with us. I can't even type your name without crying still. So hard. Too hard.

Happy 16th birthday sweetheart.

We will love you forever and always,
Mommy & Daddy

Saturday, December 28, 2019

Our Girl

We hope that heavenly birthday's are the best! Happy birthday Muffin.

We love and miss you soooooo much.

Mommy & Daddy

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Ho, Ho, Ho

May your Christmas be sweet and yummy and your 2020 be bright!

(These Santa cookies are a family tradition. I make them every year. The cookie mold is 63 years old and still going strong!)

Kim & Rolf

Sunday, December 1, 2019


Remembering with love, our sweet Lily Belle on her 2nd Angelversary.

We miss you tremendously Monkey.

Mommy & Daddy

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Miss Bella

This is our friend Bella. She is our friends certified therapy dog. We call her Yaya because she reminds us of a sweet, old Grandma. Bella is 12. We are dog sitting for the week while her owner is out of town. It is too hard for her to travel especially from FL to PA where the weather is cold.

We love having Bella with us. She's a true love bug. Rolf and I have made her an honorary Dachshund. We knew Lily and Muffin wouldn't mind.

(This is the first time in over a year that we've had a dog in the house. Bittersweet!)



Sunday, September 15, 2019

They say.....

I've heard somewhere that they say the first year is the hardest. I think that year #1 sucked and I can't imagine year #2 will be any easier.

Our hearts are so empty without you Muffin.

Not a day goes by that thoughts of you don't cross our hearts.....


Thursday, January 31, 2019

So hard to believe....

It's so very hard to believe that today our sweet little Lily Belle would have turned 15. This is her 2nd birthday in Heaven and jeez, it still hurts our hearts tremendously that she is gone. I find it's even worse since Muffin has joined her at the Bridge.

I'd like to think that my Mom, Dad and Muffin are having one hell of a party for her up there.

It will be another tough day for Rolf and I to get through.

May you always feel our love Lily Belle. Happy heavenly birthday sweet girl.

Forever..... Your Mom & Dad

Friday, December 28, 2018


Happy heavenly birthday sweet Muffin.

We miss you so much sweetheart.

Mommy & Daddy

Monday, December 24, 2018

Merry Christmas

Wishing all our friends a very Merry Christmas!

One of my favorite Christmas pictures of my 2 angel's taken in 2011

Somehow we will find the strength to get through the holiday's without our girls by our side.

We're sending kisses up to the Rainbow Bridge for ALL our fur-children who are up there. We miss you all.

Kim & Rolf

Saturday, December 1, 2018


Where does the time go.....

One year ago today Lily Belle you left us for the Bridge. Our hearts are still so broken and shattered.

Daddy and I love you forever and always!


Monday, September 24, 2018


Today we brought our sweet little Muffin home. While it was a homecoming filled with MANY tears, Rolf and I take comfort in having her back with us.

Her brown Bear that we bought for her when we heard that my Mom and Dad were adopting her will forever remain next to her urn. She wouldn't go ANYWHERE without her much loved Bear.

We tried to have Bear and her favorite blanket cremated with her, but they no longer will do that. (Dad and I made Muffin the blanket from one of my Mom's skirts after Mom died.)

For those who are newer followers, Muffin was adopted by my Mom and Dad (aka Grandma and G-Pa Bob) back in January 2006.

January - 2006
This is the very 1st picture of Muffin at 4 weeks old. That is my Mom holding her.
It was love at first sight! (Mom was 83 years old) 

My Mom had 3 awesome years with Muffin before she passed in 2008.

Perhaps my favorite picture of Mom and baby Muffin. Sitting in the rocking chair, being rocked to sleep. This is why Muffin was a sleeper! When she wasn't in her bed on Mom's lap, she was laying next to my Mom in her chair being rocked. Looking over all my pictures of Muffin, 80% of them are of her sleeping.

April - 2006
The first time I met Muffin. I didn't want to let her go.

April - 2006
Lily & Muffin meeting for the 1st time
July - 2008
Muffin & Dad
Rolf and I officially adopted Muffin in March 2008. It was a month before Mom died. Mom asked us to adopt Muffin and also Dad. I promised Mom we would take excellent care of them both.
March - 2018
Muffin was a very lucky girl to be so loved by 2 set's of parents! (And Mom and Dad loved Lily Belle equally as much. If it wasn't for Lily Belle, there would have been no Muffin in our family.)
May you and Lily Belle be singing up there with the Angel's.

September 15, 2018
Rolf loving on Muffin the morning she died. After I snapped this picture he started singing Brown Eyed Girl to her. I was able to video tape a part of it. While we didn't know she would die a few hours later, Rolf cried his way through the song as he sang. I promised him I would not post it. Just a tender and treasured moment in time.....

July 8, 2018

I believe in my heart, that some day we will all be together again. Until then I know Muffin is in great hands with Mom, Dad and Lily Belle. As hard as it is for me to say, I just know they were all thrilled to see her again.

Auf wiedersehen my beautiful Muffin. We will love you forever!

Mommy & Daddy

Saturday, September 15, 2018

Time to rest now Baby Girl

Our sweet little Muffin lost her battle with congestive heart failure at noon today. She died very peacefully while curled up on the couch napping.

We have lost the 2nd piece to our hearts now. But I rejoice in the fact that she has joined her sister Lily Belle and my Mom and Dad in heaven. (Remember, she was my parents dog 1st.) I know that they have a lot of catching up to do. Muffin has her list of things to tell them from us here.

We are beyond heartbroken right now. Our house is so very quiet.

Muffin put up a good fight against this horrible disease. We were so very proud of her.

She was a very happy girl right up till the end. I took this picture this morning, 4 hours before she passed.
Kim & Rolf

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Remembering our girl

Love never dies
Lily Belle
01-31-04 - 12-01-17

Friday, July 6, 2018

Breathe Baby Breathe

We had to rush Muffin to the ER Vet last night at dinner time. (Thankfully our Vet IS the ER Vet.)

She is struggling to breathe. This damn congestive heart failure is taking a toll on her little body! Her respirations are running 80-100 per minute. Not good! She's in an oxygen tent and on a high dose of Lasix. They will have to start lowering the Lasix dose soon so it doesn't cause kidney failure.

Xrays last night showed a lot of fluid around the heart. They are supposed to repeat the xray at 2pm and we should have the results shortly. Heart has also enlarged since May. It is greatly pressing on her trachea and it is now quite narrow.

We went to visit her today and to also talk to the Vet. We brought her her blanket and her Bear. She was happy to have her Bear and immediately laid her head on him like she always does. But her eyes are so sad.

She's always been a nervous dog and this is not helping her situation. We were only allowed to pet her through the little door. We couldn't take her out and hold her.

If the xrays today reveal the fluid around the heart has gone down, then we know that her heart is getting worse. They could do an echo on her but it won't change the outcome unfortunately!!

Now we wait and pray!

Kim & Rolf

Tuesday, July 3, 2018


25 Years
9132 Days
1304 Weeks
219,144 Hours
13,148,640 Minutes
788,918,400 Seconds

5 Addresses
2 Dogs & Fish
1 G-Pa Bob (ha!)

Yup! Been married that long.


Best day ever!


Friday, June 1, 2018

6 Months

Let's have an honest conversation. No fluff, no bull, no beating around the bush today.

I'll admit it! It's been a very tough 6 months since Lily Belle left on her journey to the Rainbow Bridge. I'm crying again now just typing those words.... The Rainbow Bridge...… Yes, today is 6 months.

Just how the heck do you mend broken hearts? Ours are still so shattered.

She came into our lives for a reason. She helped me heal both physically and emotionally after 10 surgeries (2 were lifesaving.) God gently laid her in my arms that day back in 2004. And every day for those almost 14 years she was a blessing.

She's forever embedded in our hearts. We remember all the love between us, all the wonderful times we shared, the softness of her fur, the way she loved having her belly rubbed, the way she always had to be snuggled up against our face for kisses and every wonderful thing about her but we find it just breaks our hearts more knowing she is gone. She had the sweetest soul.

Life is a long path that we must walk down. This path has been our hardest walk yet.

We are keeping really busy (so don't think we're just sitting home 27/7 crying in our soup. We're not!) I went back to work part time helping (yet again) another elderly neighbor. We're still dealing with the insurance company about the hurricane damage to our house and getting a ton of estimates for them. Rolf is always helping the elderly here also. We try to have one of us at home with Muffin all the time because of her congestive heart failure. We are too afraid to leave her home alone. We are smothering her in love. But every time she coughs we hold our breath. We have a hard time knowing what lies ahead. How much more can the heart handle.

Have you ever said, I'll never get another dog because the pain is too much to handle? Come on, Rolf and I can't be the only ones that have these thoughts. Don't get me wrong, we have a ton of love to give another little one (down the road) but right now Rolf said not a chance, not going thru this pain again. And you know what? I totally get it!! Broken hearts are tough...

Please keep our sweet Lily Belle in your thoughts today. She was such a special little girl.

We just miss everything about her. Please someone tell me, it does get easier, doesn't it?