Sunday, December 1, 2019

2


Remembering with love, our sweet Lily Belle on her 2nd Angelversary.

We miss you tremendously Monkey.

xoxox
Mommy & Daddy


Sunday, November 10, 2019

Miss Bella

This is our friend Bella. She is our friends certified therapy dog. We call her Yaya because she reminds us of a sweet, old Grandma. Bella is 12. We are dog sitting for the week while her owner is out of town. It is too hard for her to travel especially from FL to PA where the weather is cold.

We love having Bella with us. She's a true love bug. Rolf and I have made her an honorary Dachshund. We knew Lily and Muffin wouldn't mind.

(This is the first time in over a year that we've had a dog in the house. Bittersweet!)


#graysnoutsrule

Hugs,
Kim

Sunday, September 15, 2019

They say.....

I've heard somewhere that they say the first year is the hardest. I think that year #1 sucked and I can't imagine year #2 will be any easier.

Our hearts are so empty without you Muffin.



Not a day goes by that thoughts of you don't cross our hearts.....

xoxox

Thursday, January 31, 2019

So hard to believe....

It's so very hard to believe that today our sweet little Lily Belle would have turned 15. This is her 2nd birthday in Heaven and jeez, it still hurts our hearts tremendously that she is gone. I find it's even worse since Muffin has joined her at the Bridge.

I'd like to think that my Mom, Dad and Muffin are having one hell of a party for her up there.

It will be another tough day for Rolf and I to get through.


May you always feel our love Lily Belle. Happy heavenly birthday sweet girl.

Hugs,
Forever..... Your Mom & Dad


Friday, December 28, 2018

4teen

Happy heavenly birthday sweet Muffin.


We miss you so much sweetheart.

Hugs,
Mommy & Daddy

Monday, December 24, 2018

Merry Christmas

Wishing all our friends a very Merry Christmas!

One of my favorite Christmas pictures of my 2 angel's taken in 2011


Somehow we will find the strength to get through the holiday's without our girls by our side.

We're sending kisses up to the Rainbow Bridge for ALL our fur-children who are up there. We miss you all.


Hugs,
Kim & Rolf

Saturday, December 1, 2018

One

Where does the time go.....

One year ago today Lily Belle you left us for the Bridge. Our hearts are still so broken and shattered.


Daddy and I love you forever and always!

Hugs,
Mommy

Monday, September 24, 2018

Home

Today we brought our sweet little Muffin home. While it was a homecoming filled with MANY tears, Rolf and I take comfort in having her back with us.


Her brown Bear that we bought for her when we heard that my Mom and Dad were adopting her will forever remain next to her urn. She wouldn't go ANYWHERE without her much loved Bear.

We tried to have Bear and her favorite blanket cremated with her, but they no longer will do that. (Dad and I made Muffin the blanket from one of my Mom's skirts after Mom died.)

For those who are newer followers, Muffin was adopted by my Mom and Dad (aka Grandma and G-Pa Bob) back in January 2006.

January - 2006
 
This is the very 1st picture of Muffin at 4 weeks old. That is my Mom holding her.
It was love at first sight! (Mom was 83 years old) 

My Mom had 3 awesome years with Muffin before she passed in 2008.


Perhaps my favorite picture of Mom and baby Muffin. Sitting in the rocking chair, being rocked to sleep. This is why Muffin was a sleeper! When she wasn't in her bed on Mom's lap, she was laying next to my Mom in her chair being rocked. Looking over all my pictures of Muffin, 80% of them are of her sleeping.

April - 2006
The first time I met Muffin. I didn't want to let her go.

April - 2006
Lily & Muffin meeting for the 1st time
 
July - 2008
Muffin & Dad
 
Rolf and I officially adopted Muffin in March 2008. It was a month before Mom died. Mom asked us to adopt Muffin and also Dad. I promised Mom we would take excellent care of them both.
 
March - 2018
 
Muffin was a very lucky girl to be so loved by 2 set's of parents! (And Mom and Dad loved Lily Belle equally as much. If it wasn't for Lily Belle, there would have been no Muffin in our family.)
 
May you and Lily Belle be singing up there with the Angel's.

September 15, 2018
Rolf loving on Muffin the morning she died. After I snapped this picture he started singing Brown Eyed Girl to her. I was able to video tape a part of it. While we didn't know she would die a few hours later, Rolf cried his way through the song as he sang. I promised him I would not post it. Just a tender and treasured moment in time.....

July 8, 2018

I believe in my heart, that some day we will all be together again. Until then I know Muffin is in great hands with Mom, Dad and Lily Belle. As hard as it is for me to say, I just know they were all thrilled to see her again.

Auf wiedersehen my beautiful Muffin. We will love you forever!



Hugs,
Mommy & Daddy
xoxo


Saturday, September 15, 2018

Time to rest now Baby Girl

Our sweet little Muffin lost her battle with congestive heart failure at noon today. She died very peacefully while curled up on the couch napping.

We have lost the 2nd piece to our hearts now. But I rejoice in the fact that she has joined her sister Lily Belle and my Mom and Dad in heaven. (Remember, she was my parents dog 1st.) I know that they have a lot of catching up to do. Muffin has her list of things to tell them from us here.

We are beyond heartbroken right now. Our house is so very quiet.

Muffin put up a good fight against this horrible disease. We were so very proud of her.

She was a very happy girl right up till the end. I took this picture this morning, 4 hours before she passed.
 
 
Hugs,
Kim & Rolf

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

Remembering our girl

 
Love never dies
 
Lily Belle
01-31-04 - 12-01-17

Friday, July 6, 2018

Breathe Baby Breathe

We had to rush Muffin to the ER Vet last night at dinner time. (Thankfully our Vet IS the ER Vet.)

She is struggling to breathe. This damn congestive heart failure is taking a toll on her little body! Her respirations are running 80-100 per minute. Not good! She's in an oxygen tent and on a high dose of Lasix. They will have to start lowering the Lasix dose soon so it doesn't cause kidney failure.

Xrays last night showed a lot of fluid around the heart. They are supposed to repeat the xray at 2pm and we should have the results shortly. Heart has also enlarged since May. It is greatly pressing on her trachea and it is now quite narrow.

We went to visit her today and to also talk to the Vet. We brought her her blanket and her Bear. She was happy to have her Bear and immediately laid her head on him like she always does. But her eyes are so sad.



She's always been a nervous dog and this is not helping her situation. We were only allowed to pet her through the little door. We couldn't take her out and hold her.



If the xrays today reveal the fluid around the heart has gone down, then we know that her heart is getting worse. They could do an echo on her but it won't change the outcome unfortunately!!

Now we wait and pray!

Hugs,
Kim & Rolf

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

25


25 Years
9132 Days
1304 Weeks
219,144 Hours
13,148,640 Minutes
788,918,400 Seconds

5 Addresses
2 Dogs & Fish
1 G-Pa Bob (ha!)

Yup! Been married that long.

 
 

Best day ever!

Hugs,
Kim

Friday, June 1, 2018

6 Months

Let's have an honest conversation. No fluff, no bull, no beating around the bush today.

I'll admit it! It's been a very tough 6 months since Lily Belle left on her journey to the Rainbow Bridge. I'm crying again now just typing those words.... The Rainbow Bridge...… Yes, today is 6 months.


Just how the heck do you mend broken hearts? Ours are still so shattered.



She came into our lives for a reason. She helped me heal both physically and emotionally after 10 surgeries (2 were lifesaving.) God gently laid her in my arms that day back in 2004. And every day for those almost 14 years she was a blessing.

She's forever embedded in our hearts. We remember all the love between us, all the wonderful times we shared, the softness of her fur, the way she loved having her belly rubbed, the way she always had to be snuggled up against our face for kisses and every wonderful thing about her but we find it just breaks our hearts more knowing she is gone. She had the sweetest soul.

Life is a long path that we must walk down. This path has been our hardest walk yet.


We are keeping really busy (so don't think we're just sitting home 27/7 crying in our soup. We're not!) I went back to work part time helping (yet again) another elderly neighbor. We're still dealing with the insurance company about the hurricane damage to our house and getting a ton of estimates for them. Rolf is always helping the elderly here also. We try to have one of us at home with Muffin all the time because of her congestive heart failure. We are too afraid to leave her home alone. We are smothering her in love. But every time she coughs we hold our breath. We have a hard time knowing what lies ahead. How much more can the heart handle.

Have you ever said, I'll never get another dog because the pain is too much to handle? Come on, Rolf and I can't be the only ones that have these thoughts. Don't get me wrong, we have a ton of love to give another little one (down the road) but right now Rolf said not a chance, not going thru this pain again. And you know what? I totally get it!! Broken hearts are tough...

Please keep our sweet Lily Belle in your thoughts today. She was such a special little girl.



We just miss everything about her. Please someone tell me, it does get easier, doesn't it?

Hugs,
Kim


Monday, April 9, 2018

Fourteen


14 years ago today, we brought our sweet little Lily Belle home. It was on Good Friday. They should have called it BEST Friday because it was truly one of the BEST days of our lives.



She was a beautiful, sweet, loving and all around good girl for 13+ years. She survived IVDD, Cancer and horrible Florida allergies. We never knew that she had Congestive Heart Failure. Unfortunately that is what took her from us on December 1st.



Every day, beautiful memories of her cross our hearts. At least once a day a tear or two will fall in remembering our little girl. Truly, this has brought us to our knees. Sucker punched us right in the gut. Losing her has been our hardest loss. Our house is so empty without her here with us. Little Muffin still is trying to adjust.

We miss you tremendously Lily Belle.

Be well in Heaven sweet girl.

All our love,
Mommy, Daddy and Muffin


Monday, March 26, 2018

Happy Birthday Mom

Mom,

It doesn't seem like it was 10 years ago today that we spent your last birthday together. I knew it was going to be our last here on this Earth and it killed me. I, to this day have a tough time getting through your birthday.



It's been a long, tough 10 years Mom. I miss you more than anyone probably knows. You were such a wonderful Mom and I miss you tremendously.

Life has gone on and through it all you remain close in my heart. I often hear your voice guiding me, always in the right direction.  I like to think that you hear me at night when I talk to you. Just like the old days......

Your sweet baby girl Muffin is sick Mom and we're doing everything and anything possible to help her. This heart failure is a bitch, but we're trying. I told her last night that it was OK if she needed to leave to go see you again. I'm praying she chooses to stay a while longer here with us. I'm selfish Mom and don't want to lose her. I'm holding on to hope. Losing Lily in December has really torn our hearts in two. It has crushed our world and it's something we don't want to experience again right now with Muffin. Even though I know you and Dad are loving Lily up I still need Muffin here with us. Right now the 3 of us are helping each other trying to heal.

I wish you a happy, heavenly birthday Mom. I pray that heaven is the place I believe it to be. Beautiful, sun shining, birds singing, flowers blooming, we're all skinny, and a place where all our loved ones are truly waiting for the rest of us to join you. Because when my time comes if I find its not like that, I'm gonna be pissed!

Give my Lily a kiss from me.

I love you Mom.

Hugs,
Kim





Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Fourteen

Today sweet pea, you would have turned 14.

With broken hearts and many tears we wish you a happy, heavenly birthday.

Taken last year - January 31, 2017
 
You lived to be 13 years, 10 months and 1 day old
 
The BEST day ever! The day you and I met and fell in love. March 19, 2004. You were 1 month & 19 days old.
 
 

 
Sadly, the last picture I took of you. November 23, 2017. You were 13 years, 9 months & 23 days old.
 
We know that Grandma and G-Pa Bob are throwing you a glorious birthday party today. Your best furend Freeda will be there to celebrate with you, also your boyfurend Uncle Buddy and many other furends of yours who are at The Bridge.
 
Best Friend Freeda

Uncle Buddy

Our sweet girl on her 1st Birthday (2005)
I still have her birthday hat (above) and Lily has worn it every birthday for 13 years.

We wish you were still here with us Lily Belle to celebrate. Lord how our hearts hurt.
 
 
 
Hugs forever,
Mommy, Daddy and Muffin
xoxo
 
 
 

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Happy 13th

Happy 13th Barkday to our beautiful little Miss Muffin.


We love this little girl so very much!
 
 
Hugs,
Angel Lily, Mommy Kim & Daddy Rolf
 


Sunday, December 24, 2017

Bah Humbug

Sorry to say, we really are not in the mood for Christmas. It's been a very tough few months, especially losing our sweet Lily Belle only 3 weeks ago. I know it takes time to heal from such a great loss, but it feels like the pain will never end. We are sad. We are angry. We are so heartbroken! Christmas was her favorite holiday. Oh how she loved to unwrap all the presents and open all the boxes.


Christmas 2016

Just how do we get through all of it this time. She brought such light, love and laughter into our lives. We try to talk about all the good times of loving Lily, but it brings so many tears. I saw this beautiful saying this morning.....

Every time the grief steals my breath,
I remind myself the love was worth the pain.
Oh, was it worth it!

It just made me cry more.

Rolf has been in and out of the emergency room the past 3 days. He has a massive nose bleed that is not being controlled. Yesterday they packed his nose with new clotting medicine and an inflatable device. Today we have to go back and have the packing removed. It's not working! He's still bleeding on and off. Massive bleeding. They said we have to call the specialist on Tuesday and get him in to be cauterized. Why can't they do that in the hospital! Nope, they won't! Health care today sucks.

Muffin still coughs from her heart failure. I've been mixing her 3 pills into her food and so far as long as the food is stinky, she'll eat it. We are praying hard for her as we can't bear another loss in our lives.

Rolf, Muffin and I thank you all for the love and support. We've received more sympathy cards (and loving memorial gifts and flowers) than Christmas cards this year. And you know what....That's OK. Everyone loved Lily Belle. She was such a sweet soul.

We never did finish sending out all our Christmas cards this year. They still sit here on my desk.

While we are just not in the spirit, we truly do wish all our Blogging family a very merry and blessed holiday.


Hugs,
Kim, Rolf & Muffin

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Shattered Hearts

Those we have held in our arms for a little while,
we hold in our hearts forever...


Our precious, sweet Lily Belle is home.

We pray she is resting gently with her beloved Grandma and G-Pa Bob in Heaven.


 
 

Friday, December 1, 2017

Heartbroken

 
Lily Belle Paschedag
 


 
January 31, 2004 - December 1, 2017